IT’S NEVER EASY TO LOSE SOMEONE YOU LOVE.
We are now in October, when everything around us, at least in the northern hemisphere, seems to be dying in the most beautiful way. However, death is not always beautiful, and there is rarely a promise, as in nature, of a glorious resurrection with the spring. I lost my baby sister in an October that is now sixteen years ago, and it is at this time of year that I think of her the most. I dedicate this playlist of grief and loss to her.
Not every song on this list is explicitly about death or such a permanent grief, but Casimir Pulaski Day and Dance with My Father undeniably are. Both tell stories of someone, once loved, who is no longer alive in this world, and are achingly beautiful and melancholic because of it. The next section comprises songs which do not explicitly mention death, but are laden with memory and grief in their own way, looking back at a past that was different and into a future they did not expect. The reprise of I’ll Cover You and Not About Angels are taken from the soundtracks of RENT and The Fault in our Stars respectively, both movies dealing with the subject of impending or recent death, but we finish on a lighter note – the Killers’ A Dustland Fairytale refers to the fight against death, conceptualising it as a modern fairytale. There is no definite resolution, but I choose to believe the hero of the story lives.
For obvious reasons, the playlist in its entirety carries a trigger warning for death and grief – I can promise next week’s playlist will be a lighter listen as we prepare for Halloween! As a conclusion, I leave the following quote:
“Love and loss,” he said, “are like a ship and the sea. They rise together. The more we love, the more we have to lose. But the only way to avoid loss is to avoid love. And what a sad world that would be.”
E. Schwab, A Conjuring Light