HalfBreed Helene Poems by Sarah A. Chavez

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Halfbreed Helene Lists the 25 Reasons She Can Never Become a Better __________

  1. Doesn’t actually care about becoming better
  2. Lies about caring about becoming better
  3. Understands that becoming better is a social construct sold to humans through the mass marketing of face creams, weight loss products, and self-help books
  4. Intellectually distances herself from the concept of betterment as a defense mechanism
  5. Has innumerable self-defense mechanisms
  6. The biggest defense mechanism is a refusal to appear publicly vulnerable
  7. Can’t admit vulnerability [even to self]
  8. Always feels vulnerable
  9. Hides vulnerability with humor
  10. Hides vulnerability with anger
  11. Hides vulnerability with donuts
  12. Hides vulnerability with aloofness
  13. Hides vulnerability
  14. Wonders about others’ vulnerability
  15. Feels heart-stopping pity for vulnerable animals on the side of the road
  16. Refuses to recognize her own animal organs
  17. Refuses to listen to her own animal blood
  18. Refuses to open her throat to release her own animal grit
  19. Refuses to lick her own animal fangs
  20. Refuses the urge to crawl across the gravel on all fours, though
    the feel of the pebbles pressing into her knees already itches
  21. Sees the need to scratch an itch as weakness
  22. Sees the body’s need to stretch its muscles an inconvenience
  23. Sees the desire for fingertips on a thigh pathetic
  24. Can’t remember the feel of fingertips on a thigh
  25. Sighs to think of thighs and the vulnerable underside
    so easily cut with animal claws

Halfbreed Helene Thinks of Nothing

 

 

Halfbreed Helene Watches T.V.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

About the Author: Sarah A. Chavez, a mestiza born and raised in the California Central Valley, is the author of the poetry collections, Hands That Break & Scar (Sundress Publications, 2017) and All Day, Talking (dancing girl press, 2014). Her work can be found or is forthcoming in the anthologies Xicanx: Mexican American Writers of the 21st Century and Imaniman: Poets Writing in the Anzalduan Borderlands as well as the journals Pretty Owl Poetry, and The Fourth River Tributaries Series, among others. She serves as poetry coordinator for Best of the Net Anthology and is a proud member of the Macondo Writers Workshop.